Our Gender Identity is real...

The post I had planned to make, the first of the New Year  is sadly of necessity different in the light of Lehlah Alcorn's death, the circumstances that lead to her suicide (refusal of family to accept her transgendered identity seeing it as 'sinful', her forced participation in so-called 'corrective therapy' organized by the Church her parents belonged to removal from high school for home tuition to further isolate her) .
I do feel strongly her parents have a lot of responsibility for how feeling she was of a different gender to that she was assigned to at birth, was handled leading to being so distressed that face a life of this, in the end she took hers.
Some indication of the extent to which her parents refused to accept her as herself can be seen in their instance that in death her death wasn't her's being reported as that of a male, that any reference to her transgender feelings and status expunged as if they weren't and are not for real.
I truly feel that unless you've been in similar situations dealing with parents who flat out refuse to accept what medical science and human psychology tells you about gender, physical attributes or sexuality that apply to you, you cannot begin to understand  how not just wrong footed but cruel ones family can be.
My own feelings are that had the actions taken by her parents been those by a Board of Education and Mainstream counselling services, an investigation would be opened and charges may well be bought.
My mainly Libertarian view point usually balks at bringing the Law into family belief and practise, believing very much in the state only becoming involved to defend the rights of individuals from coercion, this tragic event does pose the question should "corrective therapy" be permitted at the State level given the general view of those in secular practise who believe it is emotionally damaging?

Presenting

It's been a while since I said anything directly around presentation and the opportunities thereof so while I nom my Hello Kitty Easter Egg today and outside of chat I may not be around much tomorrow btw,  I thought I'd type this.
It is very tempting if you are either transgendered and/or an adult little girl to look at how other people may be presenting and maybe compare in your own mind them..
For those who are both transgender and alg these may cover such things as how much time you are 'out' in your grown up version (what I call "your big") and how much you're in your little side.
Some who (and with apologies as I loath labels) are more "transvestite/cd" may have their little side as the trans only side so won't have a big in the same gender as their little.
For me assisted by ill heath so effectively out of the workplace, I'm generally presenting in little mode - a dead ringer for the girl in this weeks picture - outside of visiting the general store etc and yes, it's what I feel most comfortable as. It also helps that Mommy can live privately with it (she's seen me in alg mode) to whereas there are issues around presenting as 'big me' (Androgynous is accepted, anything obviously feminine isn't).
If you're working then you may well be constrained by your employers dress codes (although you may get away wearing the odd thing that's IK) and what your co-workers can tolerate. As far as I'm aware dressing alg/ik in work isn't protected in law and may be seen as a disciplinary matter although it's better for them to give you a Warning first rather just firing you.
For those who are transgender who for their own reasons are still living with partners, the opportunities to express either 'big' or little may be constrained particularly if they have visitors.
For everyone it is going to be different and the important person in this is YOU.
Around presenting as adult little girls go, unless you're really into online video chat your time presenting at home will be a solitary one outside of our favourite sites.
Your options for presenting out of doors may be restricted by public visibility of your garden so your best options may well be attending an alg camp where you can socialize and generally have fun with others  or going maybe in 'everyday' attire out together to a show or a picnic which will enable you to put a name to face and maybe learn more about the people you encounter online.
Unfortunately presenting as school kids in public such as being in a park will only lead to police or public attention.

Trans

Imagine one day you were strolling along  having had some serious doubts about your life and this conversation started.

I could of given that answer having been wearing off and on female clothing since the age of 8, raiding the clothes in the wash and stuff due to go to refuse. That's because it's how I see me. Simples.

Well, I am a magical girl through that transformation.
I have always considered myself to be transgendered from the get go with many significant grown ups seeing the girl in me. Because of the effects from this mis-mash of male body (and expectations) and female self image my behaviour was somewhat effected having issues with self confidence, attempted self harm and near enough a nervous breakdown, I was under a psychologist for a period who picked up on my transgenderedness (though they didn't use that word then) but my folks can't accept this.

Following a periodic outbreak of cross dressing in adulthood, I resolved five years ago to do so on a daily basis because it was me and I felt I was beginning to understand the real me.

I am proud to be what I am. 

Pre blog III - Holiday thoughts

I'm away this week and I think Mommy made a pretty big mistake in my past even if in some ways now she's almost making up for it, that is she dressed me like this:

Really she should of chosen this instead:

Putting me in it as that's really much more me and sending me to school in girls uniform. 
she's starting to accept that's really where I'm at now although several years back it was a very thorny issue that made being together difficult. This week for instance she saw me in my T shirt and  netball skirt without batting an eyelid or feeling that she 'had' to comment and we've been clothes shopping together too.

The big skirt years [Pre-blog]

It's been a few years since I've started wearing skirts more and today I bought a matching cotton long sleeve to  and long (25") skirt with a daisy printed pattern  as it's cool in this weather and looks great. It reminds me of the outfits one of my closest friends wore outside of class, not that I've really forgotten that and in someways I'd rather still be there
I generally tend to go for longer lengths when I go skirt shopping  like at C&A or Littlewoods and they're either more secretarial or smart casual wearing them with pantyhose.

Exploring gender [Pre-blog]

Earlier this month I write to the Beaumont Society to find out more what a transsexual is and how people that are deal with it, living their lives. The information pack I received is mind blowing outlining what the difference between cross-dressing and becoming the gender opposite to that on your birth certificate is, what hoops you need to go through to be considered for transitioning as it appears you have to do a trial period before getting the full go ahead as well as mundane stuff like how to change your name and dealing with unwanted body and facial hair.
It's rather obvious having read this several times that actually I'm trangendered, something that before I knew this word, I'd rather suspected.