Girlmania?

While the groan up world talks about landslides, Tsunami's and the like I just prefer to switch off and relax and for me that does mean looking at the cutest most purrfect sites going thinking about different looks and if any really could be me.

I mean prints like these are just lovely, light but not so festooned with a metric tonne of lacy frills but still extremely pretty and probably wood go with nice long, maybe over the knee socks and perhaps a pair of silk gloves.

You seriously can't picture a world I'd want to be in without Hello Kitty and her friends and this is lovely, not too fussy bag. 

That is very true.

I find there is something fundamental about sleeping with your plushies when you're not spending other time carrying them around with you in one paw.

What about you?

Ready girl?

So the season moves ever closer with just a week to run as you put the finishing touches to your card writing, present wrapping and personal deliveries to family such as my aunts who have played an important part in encouraging me to just be myself.

Christmas unlike in previous childhood is set to be a very feminine girlie thing whatever errors the odd relative might make with presents that are suited for a girl, a staring role with mommy in the kitchen making chrismas leaving the boys with the men doing their thing.

I'm to dress very femininely with frills, pinks and no hiding under track pants and the like because I feel so much better for being who I am.

That is the real gift of the year.

Happy Christmas!

Building on being a girl

One of things I love being a girl is the variety of materials and styles we have available so rather than doing ikky boy grab a pair of pants and just pull up, we think about what we would like to wear and how fit fits in with what we will be wearing over it such as our dresses.

Because some of dresses and skirts will be pale or specifically white means we need to have panties that won't show through .

At other times you just might love wearing something like baby pink all with some nice frilly lace and elasticated for a nice smooth fit.

I also do quite love baby blue as well.

Wearing soft satin pairs make me feel really soft and comfortable helping to express my femininity after time when it's been repressed  and I know Mommy loves me in them.

I love being a feminine little girl.

Fashion II

Following on from last weeks post that was kindly commented on, it's time to really address a topic that lies at the core of this blog from it's original conception and the added "Pre-blog" entries from the old notes and diary entries.

One way of looking at my battle with my own sense of identity is to look at it from where it was at it's most decisive, my time in school and being predominately little is to see it in  terms of wearing the school uniform I'd of preferred. 

I enjoy wearing pinafore dresses and skirts as part recreated uniform but that is not the whole of the life a little girl.

Why should I not outside of "school" be really feminine just like any other little girl, just as I wanted to be at the beginning?

Why shouldn't my skirts be frilly, adorned with pretty bows and flowers?

I have no use for a boys purse never mind a man's wallet.

I should have a pretty ornate lacy purse that any self respecting girl would just love as a matter of course to go with any given outfit.

There is no real place for me to be anything but feminine going forward.

Journalling, me and this blog

It's the end of the month, that period between All Souls Day and Guy Fawkes Night that always was a big thing as a child and even as far as law itself might go as much I'm hardly grown up, since formal adulthood  I still look very much to.

It tends to lead to reflective thoughts  but they way you work though those things has changed from the days people encouraged us to keep diaries which always ended up more like to-do lists with me rather than aids to processing my emotions.

Journalling is really where it's all at and is very much encouraged in North America.

Basically you just pour out what's happened and how you feel into a book so unlike a diary you're not at the tyranny of preset dates so you can date and finish any on thing as it happens.

Some girls put a to do list entry in but I'd soon keep that to either a diary or a side page just as a reminder in case it clutters your mind and distracts you from pouring out.

In a lot of ways this Blog is really a journal but in the digital age where I offload, talk though and cry about things on my mind which really the opposite of how being brought up as a boy you're taught - it's all all bury,shut down and carry in - and apart from all the presenting stuff I written about that's something else I can't do cos I'm a girl really.

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I am emotional, I feel, and physically show it.

I need hugs, I need to cry, I offer others a shoulder to cry on.

That's where I and this blog am headed.

Making that all important change

 

So Summer is very much out as we move toward the fall with all it's brilliant colours but my thoughts are elsewhere with all the changes I've been through and my past experiences and having been raised as a boy originally, one thing comes to mind:

Dresses and skirts are more comfortable than trousers

There, I said it. I honestly don’t believe that trousers are designed well for girls. In fact, they weren’t designed for us in the first place! Yes, you can of course purchase styles that claim to flatter, and they fit my more beanpole frame but are they comfortable and especially at certain times of the month was akin to wearing a corset some days. I thought we had left those behind in Victorian times, but alas - the restriction only slipped a few inches!

Short trousers are better from an airiness point of view if they are loose in the leg and I didn't mind them so much for things like play where you might not be quite modest but it doesn't alter this:

In dresses and skirts I have more freedom of movement, and the fabric doesn’t sit tightly against my skin, or cling where it shouldn’t. I’m finding my day to day tasks haven’t been affected wearing a dress or skirt, and I’m actually more comfortable around the house than I was before. No longer having to pull at waistbands, and bending is a breeze - not to mention (ahem) going to the bathroom.

I find myself paying more attention to other touches like wearing a pair of pretty panties that match them.

I am better off wearing skirts and dresses and I want you to encourage it in me.

the new-old transformation

 

It always seemed to me that the World of the Boy was very much grey with dark colours that just got lost among everything else and whatever they were doing that would not show up any the dirt and mud that followed them.

That was never me as much as I think what you're doing plays a part in whatever it is you might be wearing.

Today this is different cos I'm allowed to be me and I like bright colours that people notice and complement me for.

I like to look pretty in well chosen outfits and I'd love you to dress me more like these girls very feminine.

A girl like you - therapy?

Life as a girl can be difficult coming from a drab male background when as things were then very different, the product of two different systems entirely.

Really the best thing for you may well be total immersion into femininity with your hair restyled, brushed and in bows ready to be put into a pretty soft party dress so you get used to expressing the real you.

It would be a pity to waste a pretty dress without wearing some soft satin frilly panties which are fair more comfortable than scratchy boys ones.

Some cute ankle socks with frilly tops  just completes the look for a day totally out of anything in the boy zone.

A girl like you - I

Where did they come from some might say as you raced around the floor wondering what all this stuff you didn't appear to get along with was really doing here?

Really you knew in head something wasn't right as how you saw yourself in the mirror when there weren't lots of people at home was really rather different than how many of them saw you.

That mirror was magical.

 

You were feminine whatever the doctors said and how other people tried to treat you and really why shouldn't I be feminine, which is how I am on the inside anyway.

That's how the little me really is, every inch the Young Lady even if we may have play clothes for more rougher play.

At the end of the day that is what you are, Girl.

A Girl however you got here.