The eternal things

 To-day it is that still I'm sadly not to good here.

While I'm like this, I'm just thinking about what I feel is a part of all of this which isn't all how you might dress or what plushies and that you have but is really about something that soon goes missing.

It's really what I call authentic actions, acting on what it is that we are about such as the feelings and emotions we have for each other which might be to ask how someone is, being prepared to just listen and comfort them.

It is to share the fun you could have by doing things with others, co-operating such as playing games, to help less well off children through gifting things that you know they'd just love to have the opportunity to have.

It is to be of service to others in whatever way you can rather than waiting for others to do it, being prepared to make an offer first.

It's also holding on to a sense of innocence and being helpful not holding cynical and suspicious thoughts about others and their motives that you share space with. 

Weekend thoughts

Yesterday was Grump Day aka Father's Day which in the mixed up messy world of my family is awkward as most of these things just are . 

I just love vintage cards like that rather then the materially centred or smutty humoured sort you see in many card racks.

It was despite the many reports of expected thunderstorms and heavy rainful pleasant enough to walk out although the many mowed lawns around here do nothing for my hayfever unfortunately.

I like undisturbed meadowlands rather like this with dandelions and daisies growing in them being left alone rather than mowed into a boring super smooth grass patch that does little to sustain bio-diversity.

Why can't we leave these things alone until they truly need it?

Being Smol is really me

It's been a warm weekend after a week being under the weather with being pawley for most of the time which where I usually end up at my most mentally lucid but least capable of remembering what those thoughts were.

Told you, the connexions are all mixed up!

When I'm like this I'm at my littlest for no other a reason I'm not up to even trying to do anything remotely adult and the more I feel that letting go of all that other stuff really makes more sense.

I was officially a bit old to really get on the Annie revival in 1982 as much as I loved the movie back then and I'd love the Annie inspired young girls fashion for being free of anything that tries to be remotely adult or sophisticated teen in the way that back then I just wasn't feeling out of place amongst my peers. 

It's taken time to achieve it but tearing down that wall of sophisticated teen and pretending to be an adult so I am treated more as a young child, handing back those executive  functions, learning to accept direct oversight  respecting their decisions has worked better

Outside of anything I may need to learn my only need is to play for the fun of using my imagination as that little girl free from any sense of it having to be linked to anything serious, just acting my true age as a child in an adult frame.

I'm happy being a child.

Summer 2021

 Rather a warm start to the week even if it is cooler than the middle of last weeks.

While the groan ups are still arguing about how summer is going to be and there are things I certainly want to be doing by a months time, I'd sooner think about what it is I loved from past summers.

Things that past summers meant with me  were things like the various 'wakes weeks' where the fun fair would roll into town using taking a portion of the common where candyfloss sellers, games and funfairs would be running and you'd enjoy yourself playing, maybe riding the horse.

Here we'd have and are thank goodness getting some visitors to our canal, getting off for a period exploring the countryside and using the local shops.

In better times we'd of had a picnic but I suspect we may be a bit too late for that where we'd play openly together having fun, flying kites and climbing trees cos we still feel that urge, that compulsion to as our child-like selves.

Those are things that interest me and paws crossed we may get to be able to do them soon.