Childhood

My childhood wasn't particularly easy having physical disabilities that made it  difficult to walk smoothly without falling over, problems with reading, writing and speaking  and then their was the whole girl caught in a boys body problem which really wracked me off cos it just wasn't me knowing who I was.

Some of my teachers did understand a little of how I felt but most didn't and indeed I had an absolute brute of a male teacher with homophobic attitudes against poofs and sissies tearing them to pieces  in front of the whole class.

My issues around gender identity and presentation didn't help although how saw me was in reality the real me rather less than the cardboard cut outs of those in the playground who said you couldn't be a girl and boys don't do that. That's all to change now.

In addition my family life was disturbed with relationship issues, arguments threats to call the police in to do with my dad and mom. Some say kids don't want their folks to split up but  honestly I have to say I did. I wanted a forever end to it all.

The luckiest girl in the school with Girls of Saint Cyprians

Hello there. It's Joanne again and today I'm going to talk about something that's a part of being my age regressed self and a part of my actual childhood, reading and the girls stories we had at school.

Stories about the fictional lives of schoolgirls were very much what we read of not least for being having the kind of situations in them we could oh so readilly identify with and although these were set in the early Twentieth century, there was less difference between our lives and theirs as perhaps is the case today.
The Girls of St, Cyprians story is centred around a local inter school annual competition called the "Alliance" and is about Mildred Lancaster an orphaned Fifth former who has an inherited talent for the violin but is disappointed to find  she isn't chosen to represent the school in the Music section of the competition due to her day dreaming.
In order to fulfil her dreams for her future she needs to make a decision and to learn a lesson

The luck the Luckiest Girl in the School refers to is the luck one Winona has following feeling out of her depth, getting low marks with her teachers accusing of her of laziness. This would be odd as the mysteries of Geometry and Latin keep her glued to her books well into the night.
She realizes the dreadful truth-that she's an impostor in the School-and her days at Seaton High School, won on a scholarship are over. She becomes indeed the Luckiest Girl in the School.

These copies are my original Armada paperback editions from Nineteen Sixty-nine so there is a little wear as you'd expect being read as a child and surviving the big wooden toy box when we moved.

Remake,Remodel

This week I received an invite to blog on the social media site Friends Reunited which I joined late last year but to be honest compared to this, it isn't as good when it comes putting images up or the choice of fonts so I may just duo post for a bit.

This week I've been giving a bit of thought to appearances as a adut little gurl as really I've been a bit neglectful of late looking at that beyond the whole schoolgurl thing and this is something that would work.

A motif t shirt, baseball hat, back short mini skirt with a pocket, it's more "for girls" but can be worn in way that works for me. 

I like music, always loved ac/dc so a band t shirt. a summery mini skirt with ankle sock look would be just fine.

A little more sophisticated  in some ways this camel based look with baseball jacket, top, cargo mini skirt with pockets would work with either ankle socks or tights.

Introduction

Hello everyone.

My name is Joanne and my LG age is 12 years old.
In the the beginning the girl was born but someone got muddled up  because my anatomy didn't match me - the soul me - so this they way I should of looked all those years ago in full schoolgirl uniform was a rare occurrence except from the girls bless them made me up during recess understanding my predicament. That help me be one of the girls which I am, really. Joanne's friends back in the day looked very much like this hair looking oh so cute in their sensible T Bar shoes. Joanne_chan couldn't tie her laces of the shoes Mommy mistakenly bought her so she had to ask them to help her but she didn't mind as that meant she was their playmate playing games such as' love, kiss hate or adore ' or 'kiss, tickle or torture'.

Playtimes were always fun!!!

A girl like you - therapy?

Life as a girl can be difficult coming from a drab male background when as things were then very different, the product of two different systems entirely.

Really the best thing for you may well be total immersion into femininity with your hair restyled, brushed and in bows ready to be put into a pretty soft party dress so you get used to expressing the real you.

It would be a pity to waste a pretty dress without wearing some soft satin frilly panties which are fair more comfortable than scratchy boys ones.

Some cute ankle socks with frilly tops  just completes the look for a day totally out of anything in the boy zone.

A girl like you - 2

Past glimpses

Having hand made dresses and skirts

In the meadow picking Daisy's with care but feeling carefree playing for hours on end with your friends.

Winning your place in the school cheerleader team on merit and enjoying every moment shaking your pom-poms.

A girl like you - I

Where did they come from some might say as you raced around the floor wondering what all this stuff you didn't appear to get along with was really doing here?

Really you knew in head something wasn't right as how you saw yourself in the mirror when there weren't lots of people at home was really rather different than how many of them saw you.

That mirror was magical.

 

You were feminine whatever the doctors said and how other people tried to treat you and really why shouldn't I be feminine, which is how I am on the inside anyway.

That's how the little me really is, every inch the Young Lady even if we may have play clothes for more rougher play.

At the end of the day that is what you are, Girl.

A Girl however you got here.