What I so missed

 

Continuing on a little from last week, it wasn't just the personal distress I felt from not being allowed to be myself, the restrictions on what you could do because how others saw your gender, how you felt being made to dress in ways that just were not how you saw yourself it really cut into socializing.

Not being seen as and treated as "one of the girls" meant you didn't get to join in their games at home as well as school.

You didn't get to join in things like Girl Guides, fancy dress parties so you were isolated from the influences you needed to be a confident assured girl.

All I wanted to able to do at the time was attend school in a lovely pinafore dress looking pretty and being a part of their world which is where I truly belonged.

I can dress like that today, which is fantastic but it's not the same as being that girl school week after week as that child.

And that's sad.