Birthday musings

Sometimes you tend to ask yourself "What if..." and chunks of my life have indeed been rather like it for a variety of reasons like having the physical and intellectual disabilities I have you might wonder how it would of been for not having that not least upon my education and how such things play into socialization and so on.

One "What if..." is what would of been like had I of been a Girl Guide or Brownie as unlike many of my siblings and cousins I never got asked nor introduced to scouting in any way shape or form almost as if they though I'd be too much of handful for them to look after even if Guides and Scouts did have disabled members back then.

Personally as I reflect this birthday week upon it I think it would of helped with socialization which I struggle with, learning what today we call life skills as my parents never taught me any and provided a much needed sense of identity.

Sometimes I do wonder if I could go back and "do" two and bit years of Brownies with a Brown Owl, following the program obviously outside of anything involving actual children with safeguarding and that.

A bit like grown up role playing but without any "adult" stuff in it, in other words as if they were being an actual Brown Owl leading a session with me as the member.

It might do me some good.