Moved [Pre blog]

I've finally started in my new job having had an Interview just after my vacation last month as they were impressed with my skills and the references I had.
There is a lot of training to do for it but I can do some of it from home and I have a dedicated person called a Tutor to help me through this which sounds a bit like school, eh?
I'm learning about how everything is done, the systems, who does what as they are really making an attempt to integrate me in, which after my previous experiences, is very moving and at some point I'll have to travel to a special course.
I can have my Panda puppet, Peaches, with me too which is what I did back in the 90's as that felt comfortable as I find things like that keep me calm.

Vacation time [Pre blog]

It's that time of the year all ready I guess.
There's just something about Summer vacationing for me and after last years OCR course I'm thinking about changing work as one thing I found was I didn't feel I was part of the organization, indeed looking back on what I said to one the external course people back then  it's as if I'm very isolated and feel vulnerable.
One thing I want to find is where I went, cos it seems to me that I've lost something of who I am and what matters the most to me in the last ten years since I've been working for my current organization.
As I've always like the seaside I might just find some clues as it was always a happy place for in the past, you know, my childhood. Can it be that long ago since I saw it? 
It sounds silly but I have this pent up feeling inside of me that wants to play with the sand, I don't know why but I just do.
One girl I saw seemed so carefree the last time I was on vacation running about with her t shirt and skirt or was it one of these new Skort thingies that look like this.

They're by Gilberts I believe and girls in school I gather wear these rather than the traditional pleated Netball skirts and they have a built in undershort. It's all different from our day but time doesn't stay still does it?

Get set for Summer [Pre-blog]

Today I look through the catalogue and summery thoughts are with me, thoughts of carefree days on the beach, walking about and surprisingly about what I used to do when I was younger. I'm thinking more about then, don't know why, more and more.
But anyway I find myself ordering a couple of tops that you tighten up around the upper arm with these like tassles one a Jade the other pink with gray coloured stipes and two pull on short cotton skirts that you put on a one piece or bikini bottoms one pair white, the other black.
You know they make me look and feel younger more in my teens or just a little older and I'm thinking "Is this what I miss?"

Review [Pre blog]

This year had on the face of it started off on a bit of a high as an offer had been made to do some external training at work. I've never had an issue with training or even education in it's broader sense but this was a course taking in being able to do presentations, knowledge around disability issues and legislation and communications skills.
The idea had been really about equipping staff to deliver external training to a very high standard but for me at least it was more about finding more of myself and exploring the idea of a change of direction as I feel underused as a resource and very alienated toward the management system that had changed beyond all recognition since I first joined. 
I've enjoyed the lectures, working on projects and am sure I'll get a good result when the whole thing is marked.
As to what the upcoming year brings I don't know but I sense I wish to make some changes to my life.

Something is happening to me [Pre-blog]

I don't know why but I picked up from Argos the all new catalogue from a mail order company just started up called Additions, something I've never really bothered with in the past.
Past for some reason seems to be the word because I've been staring at a grey pinstrip skirt for over an hour who looking at myself in the mirror as it looks a bit like a part of a posh schools uniform and I keep on thinking about what it was like.

This is it, about 18 inches in length with a small side slit, not a million miles removed from a high school or private collage skirt.
I want it even though I'm not sure quite why other than this experience feels good to me so I filled out the order form and attached a cheque anyway.

Late vacation [Pre-blog]

I'm away again before I start studying for a course in a few weeks time at work and today I caught a bus to Caernarfon - the 5X - from where I'm staying to visit the Castle built by King Edward.
I find vacationing very peaceful with the idea of packing and unpacking reminding me of the rituals of the boarding school I attended and indeed seeing the local school children in their uniforms brings it all back to me.
We visited the shops, a tea room and had a meal out although later on he had to fight off the Seagulls after your Ice Creams and other food.

Llechwedd vacation [Pre-blog]

It's vacation time for me.

We went here, at least in part cos I have a childhood fascination with slate and also cos I like the fresh air loads.

This is the entrance to the main cafe and shop of the museum where you can get tickets to go underground to the slate mine where it's extracted from. Mommy and I have tea and biscuits but all of a sudden I'm feeling like I'm nine or ten wanting to hold her hand for security.

They even have an old fashioned sweet shop on site too and it reminds me of the times I bought sweets in the same way way asking for them and the shop owner making you a bag of them up.

In the background are the mounds of slate from the past and in the foreground a rail line and steam train used to transport slate at the time.