Looking back at needs

 

All you need is a friend to share a book with at up on the tree, a snack and a playful soft pussycat who loves cuddles.

To me that childlike innocence is more what I get off on than adult stuff really. 

Girl style [Pre-blog]

 

A lot of people talk about "passing", wanting to be seen as and blend into being an adult female but every time I think about me being "femme" it always goes back to being more of a child and actually wanting to wear school girl uniforms.

Maybe I'm more about going back to or staying in that social status???

The onset of uniformity [Pre-blog]

Although my in so far as clothes go at least, I'm more interested in female clothes domestic issues aside, my mind keeps returning to the concept of having some kind of simplified clothing, conceptually a bit like like a uniform, that I just put on rather messing about trying to match everything. I'm not really big on making choices.
It's probably a bit of hang over really from the very kid side of me,  just wanting something unfussy to play having adventures in but after waiting for the special offer hour at C&A, I walk out with a tracksuit I can wear with a t shirt underneath, that'll match my Puma shorts for everyday wear.
As crazy as it sounds my folk never bought me one while I was at school

Weeks vacation in the West Midlands [Pre-blog]

This week I went to Bridgnorth in Shropshire, part of the Western Midlands of England and visted a few places of which one was the town of Kidderminster in Worcestershire which apart from visiting many of the shops, I bought the new New Kids on the Block cd, Step By Step and the cd re-issue of the classic beach boys Pet Sounds album from the local branch of Woolworths.

Here's a picture of the town centre.

Looking inside [Pre-blog]

My parents bought me a book today that I wasn't really expecting off of them not least the the subject matter.
You see we have this issue going back about a decade and a bit about therapy where they say I need it but then reject what the therapist who has a whole string of qualifications and experiences has to say.
I think in a round about way they're trying say I need to get certain issues sorted and it's true I feel very much still a child and my behaviour is pretty much the same, magical thinking, switching off or just getting defiant so they feel putting it in 'safe' cartoon not only might be easier to understand but easier for me to accept.

Lingerie time [Pre-blog]

I was busy working today and had some time to kill before I left for home.
This thing has been bugging me for decades certainly past being 12 and it's why for all my gender issues and the rubbish I've endured, have I never actually gone out and bought myself lingerie? Is it that I'm just too embarrassed to be seen looking through the displays and to be holding them at the sales counter, like if someone I know just happens to see me?
Darn it, I want to know so today I actually and deliberately walked into a high street lingerie store and with the aid of the female assistants bought myself several pretty pairs with bows on, nothing really hot, just regular pretty to wear under my slacks while I'm in vanillaville.
The funny thing was I didn't phaze the staff out and and they made me feel comfortable during the whole time.

Exercise [Pre-blog]

Today I came back from being out with my family but they'd no idea what I had in a bag cos I carefully dodged bumping into them in the store. It was a  proper blue WRNS A line hard wearing pleated P T skirt to wear instead of shorts that had been my to go clothing of choice for a fair time but I feel like a change now and as my folks are out more I can do this.