It's the return to work week after the Christmas break so we talk about how Christmas went, thing like family gatherings, places you may of visited and presents.I like my work a lot, I know I make a very really difference to the lives of those we see even if the way we do things has changed since I first joined and compared to many of them I am privileged.
No, what I find hard going is the social expectations of my colleagues because there is a critical difference between them and me which is they have more stereotypically adult interests and that shows in things like which of course people tend to get them presents connected with.
Now with me it's basically children's things like selection boxes, tv show annuals, stuffies and dollies to play with being very much a permanent child with only really music remotely groan up, and even that's more teen.
Thus when the conversation starts I'm sounding as if their little girl talking away but then as there is one a bit like me, I'm not totally isolated but we stand apart from all our peers.
That's the hardest thing about it all really.