It's Christmas and I am sat next to this rather old computer my brother assembled a few years back as he gets through PC's like some folk get through cars - he has to update them every 12 months or so - while I keep them until they drop pieces on me.
It's hard to believe my Nan has been dead for just over a year and this time of year is difficult as Christmas for me always meant having family around, talking and playing with you as well as obviously sharing food so it all comes back to me.
This year though although I've had some more groan up things like an organizer, it's really been the small gifts like toy bears and cute socks I've really enjoyed and that makes sense to me because what makes me feel secure.
Although it came out in the summer I got the re-issued cd version of Jeff Wayne's Musical War of the World that originally came out when I was at school in 1978 and featured the hit song Forever Autumn by Justin Hayward.
It was cross between an audio adaptation with Richard Burton narrating the H G Wells novel but with a disco orchestrated musical background with songs.
This has been remixed and like some Rolling Stones discs I bought just over two years ago are super audio cds that play on my cd ordinary player. I don't know if I'll get a super audio one of them, mind.
Getting back to myself, this years been a rollercoaster for me, feeling like screaming at all the hours I've been expected to do losing so much of my time that it's the child like things I've been craving for increasingly.
I'm having my childhood back and I am thinking about making a space on this internet thing to jot it all down.