A rather damp weekend with not that much on the TV here so I might just put the radio on and listen to a bit of music after a few rough days emotionally when everything has seemed up and down and even the night doesn't bring rest.
I can remember a point when just nothing seemed to work whatever you had socially just stopped working, nothing was being shared, nothing was offered and you just felt totally isolated from everything you'd know for the period before.
You could ask as much as you like but you never got to the bottom of what this game was really all about, what it was you did wrong or even if you had and it just continued until the lead people just lost the influence they had and others slowly got back to being themselves resuming contact.
By that point you'd lost trust expecting repeat shows the minute you didn't quite make some group or others grade and it never really stopped.
I'd like to think cycles could be broken but these days I just find it hard to believe.
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